Can I Start Over?

I will not go into all the details but today is not a good day! John and I are to odds again and I am about fed up!
Last night was church and I did not go.. John made another small decision without me and I chose to step away! I think as a married couple you should choose to talk over anything that will affect the other... he does not feel the same!
Today the kids had a birthday party to go to and I made him take the kids, as of right now I cannot see myself doing things with him for awhile!
We need a break from each other I think... I need to evaluate where I need to change and where I need to step back!
I feel as if truly I am in the house now solely for the kids.. I'll be the mom and the teacher and the cook ..etc. John and I are having a VERY ROUGH PATCH!
The children know something is up but we are not arguing in front of them and keeping the peace for thier sake!
Praying is all I can do and walk in faith that tomorrow will be better!

Added note... Ruth and I have had a very peaceful day without kids and without John!
I have not gotten over my mistrust of all that has happened and all that needs to change! I will however learn and live as each moment goes by!